Tuesday, January 10, 2012

I'm back to my blog once again ^^

It's been so long that i haven't been coming back here to write for my blog. GOSH .. guess how long is it .. i wondering is it more than a year ? That's a reason i came back to write is because got one TUMMY JAGUNG asked me to do so xD..lol... So , i think i could fulfill her wish xD...lol...

erm.. everything goes good and nice and sometimes it turns bad and worst . As what I had passed through , i can say , i become tougher and more mature. It's just like someone told me, everything happened in your college life is the most valuable memories in your whole journey of life. I support and agreed what he and she told me.

i think this will be a long length of blog, as i have not blogging for so long , haha... I learned many things after i get into college life, and now i'm already 20. I can't say i knew many but i can say i knew more than what i should know.

I thought of sentence by now, everyone will remember who you are when you are on the top of the mountain and the best performance player in all the roles, and yet they will remember you when you are still valuable to them. I understand there sure will be conflict happen between friends and colleagues, and this let me know and understand that, don't ever trust anyone so much as you don't know when are they going to betray you and back-stabbed you. I tell myself this is the real world and i have to accept it and live my life ever better than before. And i told myself about how i have been lived my life from the pass 20 years, i can accept all the bad things happened on me and around me. And i have been independent for a long time, and how sad is this, when the reality world telling you that you have to depend on yourself and no one is willing to helps you by your side and when they are betraying you, and you're going to DIE. I knew how to be independent, and yet i know how to take care of myself and live my life better than all of others. But i'm tired, i wish i could rest for a while , even just a single minutes, acting in front of people is tiring and boring.

And now, in the year 2012, and i'm already 20 years old. I don't have much time to playing and joking around anymore, as my dad is getting older and older and the financial condition in my family is getting worst and worst as the economy is not so good compared to the past. I'm struggling now, i wondering whether i should continue to study or take over my dad's business and just started my working life like this. As i know, and understand myself well, I'm not the WOOD for study, and yet i have no mood to study and i'm not interested to STUDY !!!!
There are two more semester left. Anyway, i will finish my diploma and i will think about this problem again at that time.

I don't wish to grow up, because there will be a lot of fun and joy getting lost day by day and year by year. And i couldn't be PURE thinking anymore, there will be stress and many problem will be coming up in my life as i'm growing up. I'm scare to think about my future, because i'm not ready yet for that !!!

Let's end this blog by here, will be touch up again soon when i have the mood to write blog again . see ya my blog ^^

Saturday, November 27, 2010

Everything start all over again

Continue for my last post.....we broke up at the end, our story do have an ending , lots of memories and lots of tears have been drops by me , although i don't hope to be like this , although we don't even argue once , although i LOVE you so much , but you still choose to leave me and back to your own world. It's okay, I do respect your decision , and i will try my best to recover as soon as possible , but can you promised me one thing , don't ever gimme a chance next time if you don't have the strong strength to stay together with me until forever. And promise to yourself that you will take good care for yourself and protect yourself everyday. Don't fall sick and you must drink lots of water and have your meal everyday , you must sleep early everyday , don't read till so late and delay your bedtime. I will live my life well as what I promised to myself , and i know you won't care about all that , it's okay , i will be myself and you will be yourself . And i will try to accept and get through that things that might be happen in the future , i believe that i could find another one that will LOVE me as much as I love her . And i believe that you will find someone that can fulfill your requirement and he can change your attitude. That's all for now , good bye and take care for yourself.

Saturday, August 7, 2010

拉曼学院的日记

都是方面的不多说...我写部落格的大多数都是在写我的爱情或心情的...在新的学园生活里...我认识到了很多不同的人..也见识了很多所谓的"外面的世界"..不过..这篇文章是写关于我和她的开始..

05/07/2010
故事开始的第一天.......
22/07/2010
过了大概两个星期的时间,她终于开始接受我了,很开心,第一次拖着手回家,第一次让我认真地吻她.
27&28/07/2010
感情越来越好....
03/08/2010
今天很开心,真的很开心,她终于答应成为我的女朋友了,我终于可以名正言顺地告诉其他人她是我的.
06/08/2010
第一次的外出,是和学系里的朋友一起去的,我们大家一起去到港口参观,今天是我第一天第一次做了让她不愉快的事,不过,我也答应她我不会再犯了,原来她不希望我们的关系公开.那晚她第二次问我有没有后悔,我回答没有,因为我也是考虑很久了才决定要选她的,她说她害怕会伤害到我.
07/08/2010
不知怎么了,怎么今天感觉她对我有点冷淡了的啊,是因为昨天的事?还是她又再想回以前她的事啊,还是这就是她的性格啊?希望我们不会有任何事情发生啊,我不愿意你离开.

Sunday, March 7, 2010

juz a updated

seems that it have past so long ... i'm ardy recover and i'm nth now ...actually ...i juz feel very tired of my life now ...everyday doing the same things...cannot go out ...no work ...juz waiting result comes out on thursday and waiting my class start on 10th May 2010...wat a boring life for me now ...wake up > eat > bath > comp > dinner > bath > comp > sleep > (start all over again )...it's damm bored ...

i think u've ardy forget about me ...i find u juz now ...and u juz seems like a stranger for me ...or u're juz someone that better than my normal fren ...i wont care about u and i wont get irritate by u anymore ...u're so happy with him now .. i'm very happy about that ..coz u finally found a good guy and he will treat u very good and give every best things to u ...i'm looking back to our memories ...i feel that are quite sweet and nice...and abit stupid and naive ...but that's our dream ..hope it will be come true in the future (if u still remember who am i )...result is coming out by this thursday...at first ...thanks for ur teaching for my math at the last moment ..and thank you for letting me do THAT THING to u on that day ...really thank you ...coz that let me know wat am i thinking at that time ...and thank you for giving me TWO IMPORTANT lesson ...althought that's the same lesson ... but i will promise u ...i wont get into it third time ...

another person (someone will know who is she) who i wan to thanks is YOU ...thank you for let me finish my aspiration ...althought that we will meet up and have a date out because of a deal ...but it's quite funny ...we begin with a deal oso ....i think u oso know about that ...i told u right ...i feel sry about that ...but wat i did in that moment is from my true heart ... i say i love you is true de ...cause i'm really love u ....but u got to focus on ur exam this year ...so mayb i will get the chance once again after ur exam ...i hope so ...^^....but ...i hope that i wont change too much at that moment ...i scare i would have many changes after i start my college life ....but we're good fren now ...juz i'm thinking wanna to upgrade our status to another level once again ....i'm thinking shud we continue to be like NOW or get back to BEFORE .....herm...hope that will be a NEVER-ENDING between us ...althought that is juz my DREAM last night ...

there are three girls affect my life and make me grown up in my life till now ...the third girl ...i wan to talk about her now ...( I HAVE MIXED UP THE ARRANGEMENT ABOUT THE GIRL WHO HAD AFFECT ME MUCH) she is my first love ...as u all who knew me shud know who is she la ...because here is public ...so i cant write out her name la ...she is my first gf...think back to that time ...it's really funny ...we begin with a SENTENCES...our classmate shout out ' XXX love XXX ' ....herm...mant things happen between us ...U'RE the ONE who change me MUCH ...all THATS ...juz let it be our memories ...i dun wan to tell out here...i juz wan to share my feeling at here ...i dunno why u will choose the decision that time ...but i realize that during form5...coz u really done wat u SAID ...i saw u really study very hardworking and u really did enjoy ur life well and great ...this is wat u promised to me ...i accept the reason now ...but i thinking to refuse about ur reason now oso ...coz we're 18 now ...althought there's still many years for us to study ....but i think now we can manage our time well ...and we can control our felling and give out our LOVES well and more clever....i can promise to u .. if we get a chance to be TOGETHER once again ....i will swear to GOD and swear to u ....i wont did the same mistake anymore and i will control my temper and i will keep our distance as well...i will let u get ur FREEDOM ....and we wont be like last time ...everything oso nid u to 'ZAO' me ... but now i've change ...i have ardy change much and i can promise i can be a goof BF ...but i cant promise u to be a PERFECT BOYFRIEND ...cause nobody is perfect in the world ...but i can give u the ever best things in the world ...a TRUE HEART ...althought not only i can do this for u ...and i know u got a new life and new target now ... and u wont look backward to the PAST ...so i will wish u and greed u now ...i wish and hope u can get a GOOD bf ...and i hope he will treat u very well and better than mine ...and i hope u will got a happy relation in some other days ...and i'm very happy that we're FRIEND now ...

I feel relax and relax and relax after i write out this post ...i've express out my feeling in my heart ...this is ardy tighten me for few months ..and i hope tonight i will get a good sleep ....

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

trip tp a'famosa

On the first day ...after i had a dim sum breakfast with my family ....thn i went to meet up with my frens at petronas ...after that ...we went to kb hse by his estima ...12 ppl stuck inside one car >.<...haha ...after that...we get on to the travelling van and start our journey to melaka...

Day 1 (18th Dec )
we reached a'famosa about 11 smth...first we thought we can check-in at 12 o'clock ...but when we gonna check-in the guys told us we onlu can check-in at 4 o'clock ...WTF ...it's wasting our time ...after we argue with the guy ...thn we get out key and we move to our bungalow ( villa )...after we finish putting our luggage...thn we changes our cloth and prepare to go to the water world...it's fun and we feel joy and happy ....somemore that day is raining ...it's very cold ...jy and eevon cant stand for the cold so they both come up and rest at aside ...thn the remaining of us cont to play in the pool(wave)...after that ...around 5smth we leave water world and waiting our shuttle in the entrance ...and that time is raining....it's quite cold ~~after we finish bath ...we went to cowboy's town to have dinner at the chinese restaurant and the food is suck ==||...thn after dinner ...we went back to our villa to play games and drinks....some of us get drunk ...^^..lucky i dint...

Day2 (19th Dec)
early in the morning ..i'm the first one who wake up and be the morning call for the rest ....after we finish prepare ...we went out to have our buffet breakfast..the food is normal .....and raymond is being thief...he stealing few pancakes and bring back to our villa ....lol....the waiter is looking at him and we had take a video record =p...we took a nap after breakfast when we went back to villa ....thn around 2smth ...we went out to animal world ...and that time is heavy rain ...we all almost get wet...but it's fun ....we took photo with parrot and monkey ^^...(photo will be shown in my frens' FB photo album,if they got upload the photos)...the animal shows is canceled because of heavy rain ...but we got another good 'show' to watch ....the org utan climb out from the cage and running around the place...all ppl were get shock and running away...lol....bunch of ppl scare of one org utan ...funny =p...because of heavy rain ..so we took boat to the Monkey Island...there are many kinds of monkey ...we took many photo of the monkey ....althought they are beside the "window"....we all were wet and we went back to villa around 6smth ...after we took bath ...we went out for dinner and we waiting cowboy's show and Carnivals at 8 o'clock..the are few pretty ...they looks beautiful ...all the man shout and get attract by them ^_^...but there oso many 'AGUA' ==....aiyer...wanna muntah jor ....yiak....after the carnival ....we went to the bar to have a drinks and watching football match ...thn around 12 o'clock...we went to watch 4D movie ....and it's sucks ...just only 10 minutes thn finish ardy ....lucky it's free ...after that ....we went back to villa and play card game ...kb , eevon , jy get drunk ...and we played hide & seek in the whole villa ...the area is very huge ...me , kit , hao , chee yi being 'ghost ' , we went to find all the 'human' ( kb , poey , li ying , eevon , joe)....raymond and jy was sleeping in villa == ....haiz ...and tj accompany jy in the room ....thn we all get back to villa around 3 o'clock ...few of us still dun wan sleep and watching basketball match till 4smth ...i'm the last man standing winner .... i slept at 5 o'clock ....

Day 3 (20th Dec)
Early in the morning ...i awake because of kb's phone ringing....==...we all wake up around 11.30 and bath and pack our things ....thn we check-out at 12 o'clock ....after we check-out ...we all go back to kb's hse ...after that we went to eat pizza hut and kb sent everyone of us back to home ...me , hao , joe went to raymond 's hse and stay overnight cause we dun wan go back home so 'early' ...=p....at night ...after we had dinner ....we went to play pool...and at midnight...ck come and fetch us and we went to play snooker == ....thn we had a FREE meal in the restaurant by treated by the malay guy....cause he wanna to ask us to join as a member ...PGRedCafe...==...but the food quite nice ....we order almost over RM 100 de food ...and we just leave that restaurant like that....

Sunday, October 18, 2009

Day off to SPM

These thirty plus days ...wat can i do is just study study study ....and study ...haiz ...nth more i can do and think ..erm...loves , games , party , etc ...these all dun think first luu...there are many chances and choices after my SPM ...

erm....dunno why ...these few days i miss about the feeling that she and she give me ...mayb i'm alone for too long ardy gua =p ....erm....i think i need someone who can take care of me and arrange everythings for me ...plans everything for me ..erm....mayb i miss her too much jor gua =p ..bleks hehe...

erm...wat can i do ..study first ba ....it just left 30 days ....last war for 30++ days ....thn i will claim my freedom and all the things i wan ...=p ...gambateh...

Friday, October 9, 2009

exam GONNA finish ^_^

hehe ...nowadays busying study and study and study ...== ....weird ...haiz ...forecast exam gona finish ...next monday 12 oct 2009 .... my last war with forecast .... =p ... one month later i got to face my final war with SPM o.O ....think dao oso scare jor ....=p

nowadays din emo so much jor ...is a good changes ...herm ...lsw and lsx geh things gone jor luu...many latest news updated ..and ....that's all is secret la ....anyone who wan to know just ask me la ...=p ....

yesterday morning learning account=>document == ...haiz ....but when i do the question ..i stuck and lost my way ....haiz ....from now on till sunday morning i'm free and off to study...only start revision for perdagangan on sunday ...during this short time i need to take a break and take a rest ... fall sick T_T ...wuwuwu ... got to recover faster before the last paper